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I am posting this pretending it is July 22nd (lol!)....
I was on a trip to Greenhills last Friday with bestfriend Marcy and I suddenly remembered it was Maxi's birthday (thank you my Blackberry hehehe).. So while in the cab enroute to GH, I called him up. Actually I wasn't so sure where he is (whether in Italy or in China) but then I just rang him up. And he did pick up!
I tried to remember how our conversation went so these may not be the exact words but kinda like this anyways.
He couldn't seem to hear me well..
Me: "It's me Ann."
Maxi: (In his thick Italian accent): "Hi Ann, how are you?"
Me: "I am good. Are you in China?"
Maxi: "Yes, I am here. I am leaving on the 4th of August."
Me: "I just wanna say happy birthday Maxi."
Maxi: "Thank you, I really appreciate it."
Blah, blah, blah... etc..
Hahaahaha. Yes- I was extremely happy. I missed that thick, funny and sarcastic accent of his. I teased him about introducing to my new bf so I passed the phone to Marcy, lol. Hahahaa. He knew I was pulling his legs. He knew Marcy some years ago when we met in Manila.
And we talked about few things, his nephew (Gabriele) and niece (Vittoria), what makes him busy and his plans of vacation when he comes back in Parma.
And at the end of the call, I felt this overwhelming joy within me. I am no longer hurting indeed. I had finally accepted that this man has not loved me except being a friend from the very start and yet I was so blind not to feel it. Only because I hoped for more. Which pushed him away even more. And I lost him at some point only because I could not put myself back together.
Yes- I am no longer afraid. No longer hurt. It all happened when I finally get to see him last year. I found my way back hihihihi! Though sometimes I wish we can still talk more like old times, like old friends that we were used to, I guess he has finally moved on too.
Happy birthday again, Macho! I will always be a friend no matter what.
Yes- even when you pronounce "since" as "Science" or "minutes" as "maynuts". Lol.
Okay- I am nasty. Peace.....